Often times I
came to you
In haste and in
a flurry
Asking for this
and that
Harried and wearied
Rapidly working
out a plan B
Just in case You
didn’t give me what I wanted
I would ask you
impatiently
Tapping my feet
and consulting my diary
Giving you
ultimatums
As if you had
nothing better to do
Than to satisfy
my every whim
I never thought
to ask
Why the Master
of the Universe
Waited patiently
As I went
through a tirade, a tantrum and a sulk respectively
I never
questioned why he didn’t call me to order
And exercise his
divine will over mine
Time and time
again as I came to Him
With one
cosmetic need or the other
He gently tried
to woo me
Court me; turn
my attention away from the toys
Which were
really the only reasons I needed Him
He would watch
me in Christian gatherings
Screaming in
ecstasy as they preached my kind of message
Full of
razzmatazz and why I had a right to the finer things of life
Talking
christianese as if I really knew God
Quoting
scripture in rapid succession
A fake at best
and this is not a jest
One day I came
into His Presence
Broken and torn,
bleeding and battered
Gone were my
arrogance and tirades
As I wailed in
His comforting arms
I lifted my face
for the first time
To behold His
Weeping face
And encountered
a love that blew me away
His eyes were
warm and tender
So full of love
for me!
As He gently wiped my tears away
I saw the God
who had waited so long
For me to
realise I was made for Him
In a flash, all
I ever thought was necessary to life
Faded into
oblivion
I beheld the
lover of my soul and my fire within
I gasped in
wonder, touching his scared face
I wept in joy,
as He sang over me
Rivers of
healing washed over me
Renewing,
re-validating, re- directing
I recognised
myself as He created me to be
Gloriously
living for His Praise
I saw the pain
and trials on the path He set before me
Yet I rejoiced
over the splendour after the pain
I knew then
That I would
walk across hot coals for Him
If that would
bring Him glory
Now and then and
again,
I would come in
a tantrum and sulk
Forgetting how
far we’ve walked this love journey
Immediately I’d
hear Him call my name
That voice that
shakes the foundations of the universe
And oceans hear
and flee in awe
Suddenly my
temporary insanity vanishes
As I run into
the arms of He who loved me first and best
(c) Kelechi Vera Olawoyin (nee Okeahialam)
